D&D Postponement

I hate to do this especially two weeks in a row, but I'm not going to be able to do the game tomorrow night. My schedule for the end of the week has changed due to external events. I'm not inclined to fight to rearrange them because I'd be massively underprepared... the same things that kept me from getting much writing done also kept me from getting any prep work done on the game, and with how widely things diverged from the ways I expected they might go that's not good.

I've got work I've need to get done, but tomorrow during the day I'll be making a roleplay thread for the game so we can get some story continuation and at least some of the planning out of the way. If I can see how things are generally going I'll be able to plan better.

I'm going to be spending the next three weeks house/dog sitting for my folks, which means not only will I be staying put but I'll be staying put in glorious isolation. Nothing and no one around to affect game night, my sleep schedule, or work regimens. I'm looking forward to it.

The State of the Me: A Better Place Edition.

I slept pretty well last night. I've been distracted the past couple of weeks, partly by some unavoidable family stuff, but partly by things that I brought on myself... or failed to act to prevent. I also have been letting myself get cut off and isolated... whenever I start biting my tongue about one thing, the words slow to a trickle all over the place. I can't write with thoughts and worries and things building up in my head and not going anywhere. I can't blog about other things. I can't sleep, for that matter. I lose the habit of telling Jack things. When I start to clam up, I end up acting like I'm a clam made out of dark matter who lives inside a black hole and isn't generally very talkative.

Anyway, there's a post up at Murv Sellars's blog detailing what he calls his ten years at "The Bad Place" (his former job), and of course every one of the things he enumerates about why the Bad Place was Bad is about a person who made it so. I can understand why it's The Bad Place and not The Place Where That Bad Guy Was... the place was tainted for him. Toxic people create toxic atmospheres, that's part of why the "toxic" metaphor works.

I'm literally in a better place than I was a year ago, but my Bad Places have never really been places, they've been people, and my relationships with them. I've done a lot to get out of those Bad Places in the past year, but I still have a ways to go.