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Friday, April 11th
Apr. 11th, 2014 07:54 amThe Daily Report
Well, I'm feeling pretty good about my decision (made late yesterday on Twitter) to *not* try to wrestle the publishing schedule back to Wednesday by next week, because I realized this morning that pushing for Wednesday would mean I was writing the bulk of the chapter on... April 15th. That would have ended badly. The fact that I hadn't put that together before is just one sign of how much the calendar's been slipping away from me lately.
I feel really conflicted about missing my schedule target at all, as I usually do, but while the schedule's moved around, it still is a chapter a week. While my long term goal is to not have the publishing schedule tied to the production schedule... sometimes I'm slower than other times. This is one of those times. It's probably going to be one of those times for a while.
The State of the Me
I did some real stock-taking yesterday about my current state of mental and physical well being. There's just been a lot of stuff snowballing together: I've been having unusual difficulties sleeping, I've been sleeping late and thus not keeping up with my usual breakfast and morning caffeine routine and getting a late start to my day... and on top of this, I've been running out of the pills that I use to keep my body and mind ticking along on a relatively even keel.
I restocked some of the pills earlier this week and will be getting the rest soon.
Last night, I went to bed at nine and took melatonin and valerian together for the first time in a long time. The results were sort of mixed. I woke up way more often than I would have liked, but I avoided the laying awake for hours in grim contemplation thing that's been happening since March. And I felt pretty good at seven o'clock in the morning, when I woke up properly.
Plans For Today
I'm honestly not making them yet. I'm going to first off have a big breakfast and take a bath, give my body time to decide whether I'm actually awake for the day or if I'm going to need to crash some.
Well, I'm feeling pretty good about my decision (made late yesterday on Twitter) to *not* try to wrestle the publishing schedule back to Wednesday by next week, because I realized this morning that pushing for Wednesday would mean I was writing the bulk of the chapter on... April 15th. That would have ended badly. The fact that I hadn't put that together before is just one sign of how much the calendar's been slipping away from me lately.
I feel really conflicted about missing my schedule target at all, as I usually do, but while the schedule's moved around, it still is a chapter a week. While my long term goal is to not have the publishing schedule tied to the production schedule... sometimes I'm slower than other times. This is one of those times. It's probably going to be one of those times for a while.
The State of the Me
I did some real stock-taking yesterday about my current state of mental and physical well being. There's just been a lot of stuff snowballing together: I've been having unusual difficulties sleeping, I've been sleeping late and thus not keeping up with my usual breakfast and morning caffeine routine and getting a late start to my day... and on top of this, I've been running out of the pills that I use to keep my body and mind ticking along on a relatively even keel.
I restocked some of the pills earlier this week and will be getting the rest soon.
Last night, I went to bed at nine and took melatonin and valerian together for the first time in a long time. The results were sort of mixed. I woke up way more often than I would have liked, but I avoided the laying awake for hours in grim contemplation thing that's been happening since March. And I felt pretty good at seven o'clock in the morning, when I woke up properly.
Plans For Today
I'm honestly not making them yet. I'm going to first off have a big breakfast and take a bath, give my body time to decide whether I'm actually awake for the day or if I'm going to need to crash some.