Status Post: Why not?
Jul. 24th, 2011 05:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alexandraerinNews For Today
Haven't slept a wink all night. It's a mixture of creative energy and nervous energy. After the posting on Friday, Jack and I both feel better... not "better" in the sense of "I was ill but then I recovered and now I'm all better", just "better" in the sense of "better than before." We were both bracing ourselves for a ton of fallout and so far the response has been very supportive. There's still time for that to change, but we're not borrowing trouble.
I don't want to seem like I'm co-opting Jack's pain or his experience. I only took the time to share my own experience. I have just spent the better part of two months not being able to do anything to help him, and then I had a chance to do the one thing I'm really pretty good at: telling a story.
Oh, I'm hopeless at the actual telling. There is a reason my joke-telling tends to run to shaggy dog stories and forced puns. But put me in front of a keyboard and the words fall down like rain.
I want to do that again. I want to do that more. I want to go back to writing stories that entertain people or infuriate people or confuse people or arouse people, stories that only deal with horrible things in a fictional and often oblique or roundabout fashion. More, I need to... in both an Asimovian "I need to do this or else I'll die." fashion and a more Adam Smith "I need to do this or else I'll die." fashion... you know, capitalism and all that.
I'm really hesitant to mention that, because a) I'm aware that my priorities haven't been on my work lately and b) my mind keeps running to all the ways it could look bad, with regards to the timing. But here's a fact of timing: I was meant to do a fundraiser in July.
According to my personal financial calendar, my "keep money coming in when I need it" calendar, this was supposed to happen. I didn't, in no small part because there's a lot of things I meant to do the past two months that didn't get done.
So assuming there are no giant bombshells spinning out of this whole situation, I'm going to be doing... something... in late August, I guess, because after everything that's happened I don't even remember what my fundraiser idea for July was and I don't want to start rattling the cup before I've made some headway on the incentive stuff from before.
My whole deal is that I'm an artist and I am producing things of value, and even if I'm a performing artist who plays for tips I'm not begging with cap in hand.
So the fundraiser is going to happen, once I've got the newsletter straightened out and some of the bonus stories written and I've actually got the Kin and Distant Relations going as a thing and not just an idea I had...
I don't even want to think about where I imagined I'd be, story-wise, back when I was hurriedly packing for WisCon. So many things have gone badly since then. The loyalty of my subscribers has been a tremendous blessing.
The good news is that in spite of all this I feel like Tales of MU is going well. The first book of the new volume too forever to wind up but I like where the second book is going. I think those who would favor a more plot-centric approach from me will enjoy it.
This is turning into more of a ramble than a status post, but then I've been up all night.
And where I started this burst with a post of energy... okay, that's wrong. While I started post with a burst of energy I'm now suddenly feeling very tired, so I'm going to go to go lie down.
Haven't slept a wink all night. It's a mixture of creative energy and nervous energy. After the posting on Friday, Jack and I both feel better... not "better" in the sense of "I was ill but then I recovered and now I'm all better", just "better" in the sense of "better than before." We were both bracing ourselves for a ton of fallout and so far the response has been very supportive. There's still time for that to change, but we're not borrowing trouble.
I don't want to seem like I'm co-opting Jack's pain or his experience. I only took the time to share my own experience. I have just spent the better part of two months not being able to do anything to help him, and then I had a chance to do the one thing I'm really pretty good at: telling a story.
Oh, I'm hopeless at the actual telling. There is a reason my joke-telling tends to run to shaggy dog stories and forced puns. But put me in front of a keyboard and the words fall down like rain.
I want to do that again. I want to do that more. I want to go back to writing stories that entertain people or infuriate people or confuse people or arouse people, stories that only deal with horrible things in a fictional and often oblique or roundabout fashion. More, I need to... in both an Asimovian "I need to do this or else I'll die." fashion and a more Adam Smith "I need to do this or else I'll die." fashion... you know, capitalism and all that.
I'm really hesitant to mention that, because a) I'm aware that my priorities haven't been on my work lately and b) my mind keeps running to all the ways it could look bad, with regards to the timing. But here's a fact of timing: I was meant to do a fundraiser in July.
According to my personal financial calendar, my "keep money coming in when I need it" calendar, this was supposed to happen. I didn't, in no small part because there's a lot of things I meant to do the past two months that didn't get done.
So assuming there are no giant bombshells spinning out of this whole situation, I'm going to be doing... something... in late August, I guess, because after everything that's happened I don't even remember what my fundraiser idea for July was and I don't want to start rattling the cup before I've made some headway on the incentive stuff from before.
My whole deal is that I'm an artist and I am producing things of value, and even if I'm a performing artist who plays for tips I'm not begging with cap in hand.
So the fundraiser is going to happen, once I've got the newsletter straightened out and some of the bonus stories written and I've actually got the Kin and Distant Relations going as a thing and not just an idea I had...
I don't even want to think about where I imagined I'd be, story-wise, back when I was hurriedly packing for WisCon. So many things have gone badly since then. The loyalty of my subscribers has been a tremendous blessing.
The good news is that in spite of all this I feel like Tales of MU is going well. The first book of the new volume too forever to wind up but I like where the second book is going. I think those who would favor a more plot-centric approach from me will enjoy it.
This is turning into more of a ramble than a status post, but then I've been up all night.
And where I started this burst with a post of energy... okay, that's wrong. While I started post with a burst of energy I'm now suddenly feeling very tired, so I'm going to go to go lie down.