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Jul. 27th, 2011 03:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alexandraerinI just tweeted that there's a "lot going on tonight"... not so much an understatement as an around one.
I'm kind of striking a weird balance here... I haven't specifically mentioned what happened (and what's been happening) on my website, or on the Twitter that broadcasts to its front page. I'm going to have to, sooner or later, because my readers kind of need to know what's going on with me and only a small fraction read this blog.
But I'm worried about how I do it. In my post I didn't hold back on my feelings and observations, but my goal's never been to incite anyone. Here in the twin universe of DW/LJ, I'm a relative nobody and keeva/kynn is pretty well-known. I would hazard that most of my readers who aren't also in my LJ sphere have never heard of her. I'm leery of going before them and laying out the facts because they don't know her from Eve, and because they already have my back, and Jack's. As my very patient moderator (who often must exercise more patience with me than with the commentators), I think he's pretty well-liked.
A small blog post on the site saying that we are dealing with a situation and there's more information on my personal blog seems like some kind of transparent ruse, the shallowest way of having one's cake and eating it, too. Saying that there is a personal situation going on and not mentioning that it's described on the blog just seems silly, since some of the readers who follow me here will no doubt fill in that fact.
Heck, for all I know at the moment that's already been done. I never read comments when I'm working on a chapter, and I've had a chapter open since last Friday, when events first eventuated.
And then there's the flipside, where I haven't been talking about my work as much here lately... basically it's a factor of not really wanting to have new readers or new attention for my work because of this. I'm very proud of what I've accomplished and I want to accomplish still more, but I don't want to look back and know that I got a boost from all this.
Bleh. I think I just need to plunge ahead. I need to get some momentum back in my work. I said at the begining of this that one can't bite one's tongue and be surprised when the words won't come. Starting tomorrow, I'm going to remind myself as often as I need to that this is still my blog, that no matter what other temporary purposes it's put to it's still a part of what I do for a living.
We may be in the market for a "new normal" for some time to come, but the sooner we can get back to some kind of normal, the better for everyone.
I'm kind of striking a weird balance here... I haven't specifically mentioned what happened (and what's been happening) on my website, or on the Twitter that broadcasts to its front page. I'm going to have to, sooner or later, because my readers kind of need to know what's going on with me and only a small fraction read this blog.
But I'm worried about how I do it. In my post I didn't hold back on my feelings and observations, but my goal's never been to incite anyone. Here in the twin universe of DW/LJ, I'm a relative nobody and keeva/kynn is pretty well-known. I would hazard that most of my readers who aren't also in my LJ sphere have never heard of her. I'm leery of going before them and laying out the facts because they don't know her from Eve, and because they already have my back, and Jack's. As my very patient moderator (who often must exercise more patience with me than with the commentators), I think he's pretty well-liked.
A small blog post on the site saying that we are dealing with a situation and there's more information on my personal blog seems like some kind of transparent ruse, the shallowest way of having one's cake and eating it, too. Saying that there is a personal situation going on and not mentioning that it's described on the blog just seems silly, since some of the readers who follow me here will no doubt fill in that fact.
Heck, for all I know at the moment that's already been done. I never read comments when I'm working on a chapter, and I've had a chapter open since last Friday, when events first eventuated.
And then there's the flipside, where I haven't been talking about my work as much here lately... basically it's a factor of not really wanting to have new readers or new attention for my work because of this. I'm very proud of what I've accomplished and I want to accomplish still more, but I don't want to look back and know that I got a boost from all this.
Bleh. I think I just need to plunge ahead. I need to get some momentum back in my work. I said at the begining of this that one can't bite one's tongue and be surprised when the words won't come. Starting tomorrow, I'm going to remind myself as often as I need to that this is still my blog, that no matter what other temporary purposes it's put to it's still a part of what I do for a living.
We may be in the market for a "new normal" for some time to come, but the sooner we can get back to some kind of normal, the better for everyone.