So, I'm blogging again...
Jul. 28th, 2011 10:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alexandraerin...you know, about whatever random stuff comes across my mind. It's been good. I spent much of last night re-reading old blog posts, going back to 2009 (before I really "met" Jack) to try to... I guess re-connect with my own life. Reading blogs led to writing blogs, which can only be a good thing. It's getting the words flowing and it's getting my mind moving in more directions now.
One thing I've heard over and over again from the people who follow my blog (and thus have a bit more direct insight than the people who just follow my writing) is how much happier I've been since we got together. I always wondered how people could tell that, and then I starting going back and realized how really, really, really angry I was back then. About everything. Anything. Sometimes nothing.
Yes, I ranted on a lot of serious topics, but (for instance) I think I wrote more words about how wrong some random people were about D&D 4E (and on the internet, the worst place to be wrong!) than were actually contained within the core rulebooks.
And I didn't even really remember the content of the posts, because they were all reaction, no thought.
And I wrote them in the middle of what was actually an incredibly awesome time, as it was in the midst of a weeklong D&D marathon with friends.
This kind of anger was not healthy for me on any level, and I'd been trying to scale it back already before Jack came on the scene. He has some anxiety issues, but outside of that he has an incredible calm. He finds it amusing, some of the things I get worked up over. I find it frustrating, some of the things that pass right through him.
...
Aaaaaaaaaaanyway, this started out being a post about how you're probably going to be seeing a lot more blog posts here in the coming days as part of my road back.
One thing I've heard over and over again from the people who follow my blog (and thus have a bit more direct insight than the people who just follow my writing) is how much happier I've been since we got together. I always wondered how people could tell that, and then I starting going back and realized how really, really, really angry I was back then. About everything. Anything. Sometimes nothing.
Yes, I ranted on a lot of serious topics, but (for instance) I think I wrote more words about how wrong some random people were about D&D 4E (and on the internet, the worst place to be wrong!) than were actually contained within the core rulebooks.
And I didn't even really remember the content of the posts, because they were all reaction, no thought.
And I wrote them in the middle of what was actually an incredibly awesome time, as it was in the midst of a weeklong D&D marathon with friends.
This kind of anger was not healthy for me on any level, and I'd been trying to scale it back already before Jack came on the scene. He has some anxiety issues, but outside of that he has an incredible calm. He finds it amusing, some of the things I get worked up over. I find it frustrating, some of the things that pass right through him.
...
Aaaaaaaaaaanyway, this started out being a post about how you're probably going to be seeing a lot more blog posts here in the coming days as part of my road back.